The Proposal- Never Before ( probably never again)

Characters: I, I.I(INNER I),S(She)

I.I:How many days are u going to wait? tell it today.

I:Oh NO! Some other day..Astrology does not favour me today.

I.I: U idiot! if u delay urself for these things, u will miss her.

I. Ok I will do it today. (Looks in the mirror,says to myself: “u can do it, today is ur day. Afterall every dog has its own day. I am much more than that..oh no why is the humour creeping in? get a bit serious..GOD she is coming)

S: hi,how are you?

I: (To Myself: How formal she is? how much I hate this) hi, I am great as usual. just wanted to tell something

S: Is it? I am all ears. Tell me soon.

I: ( Is she really interested or just faking) I have always wanted to tell this to u. I am not a person having high expectations .( I hope she does not feel offended). After talking with u, I felt that if u are the first one to wish me when I get up( am I too cryptic, hope not, perhaps I will make myself more clear), if I can stay with u forever or better to put it as if u can let me stay by ur side for ever( I guess I am not overdoing it, let me see her response)

S: (seems to be confused and at a loss of words) well I dont know that much about u..How can I accept ur proposal?

I: U see! ( putting a trail of lost confidence in my voice) U have seen me( oh, see and seen, wats happening to my vocab) U pretty well know about my character. U know how much good I ……(I.I STEPS IN)

I.I: Wat are u doing? don`t brag, gals dont like ppl who brag

I. but how will she know abt me if I dont tell

I.I: u have to tell in such a way that u would be the most luckiest if she agrees.

I: Hmm..well I don`t completely agree with u.. will rather follow the middle path. (To Her): I would not speak about my positives as u already know most of them. I will rather tell u about my shortcomings and leave u to decide whether u can put up with them or not. I donot like underplaying myself or elevating myself. I speak frankly only to those ppl whom I care about. If any one does even a little help to me, I will remember them for ever. If anyone insults me, I will pretend to forget but never put it out of my mind. I have never really given so much thought to the traits in u that have impressed me. I just think that my life would be better than many people if u agree but not necessarily the best. This is my way of speaking out. I could simply have masked all this and said, “U will make the biggest positive difference to my life” but I am not sure of the word “biggest”.

Now that I have spoken out, it is your turn.

P.S.1: If by any chance u have read this, it may be better for u to forget this.

Numerology-6

        9 hrs before the cat result, I was reminded of the mov ANASUYA in which the hero,a  believer in numerology, loses money at betting..I was just thinking whether numerology has anything to do with if I dont get iim calls . I was thinking of the number 6..The exam was on november 18th and results on jan 8th..To my horror I found that 8th was the 51st day after the exam(5 + 1=6)..I also realised that my h.t. num is 5420175(adding to 24 which in turn adds to 6)..I was struggling to put this out of my mind which I cannot do..Then the number of iims is 6 which made me more uncomfortable. I was thinking of my dob then.officially thirty(oh no 6-lettered) august(damn it..again 6) 1986(let me count 1+9+8+6=24; 2+4=6) ohh NOO!..I was praying that I get atleast one call..and ultimately it turned out to be 3 though I am not extremely pleased.

The other thing I wanted to write about is Goldman Sachs gd..It was more like a fish market and all of them were responsible barring urs sincerely and another helpless soul..I think all of them considered it a crime if they did let anyone talk for 10 seconds..It is just the “survival of the loudest”.

These days I have changed very much. Sometimes I want to win badly as if my life depends on it. Sometimes I want to lose, I want to give up everything. My PJ`s are not coming off as well as I would like them to. This year has taken away from me so much which I may never regain( not referring to the PJ`s though)

P.S.1.Coincidentally my roll num is 2004 (2+4=6,that denotes the year)01041(I hope the Indian batsmen find all these 6`s)

P.S.2.Should be going to Bangalore in a month or so..looking fwd to that

P.S.3. The iim from where call seemed most improbable before the exam has recognized me as an exception..hope a gal will realize that too